ini aku yang menahan pokok dari tumbang...
aku berbaju pink...penuh kegilaan di dalam akal ku...
aku suka..
aku teruja...
aku mahu itu..
aku mahu ini...
semuanya...

penuhi benakku denagn rindu kepada-Nya...
semoga aku bahagia....



~~~~~~~amin~~~~~~~~

Salam dan selamat sejahtera semua...

hikhikhihkhihkhihkhihkhih....

Wah dah macam berita pula....

Bukan apa bosan ar..segala macam cerita bermain dalam kotak pensilku...

Hehehee....dalam kalkulatorku..

dalam laptopku..
dalam speaker burukku...

tetikus aku pon dah mahu meletop taw....

hari ni xder apa yg nk di persembahkan sangat...

cumalah bingkisan hati yang kering lagi la kebingungan....

hari ni..hari ku bermula dengan sinar matahari pagi yang bolehla..

yang agak memalu kerdil...

sapa-sapa yang basuh baju boleh la sidai...

esok hari tiada ketahuan la kalau matahari tidak akan muncul lagi...

siapa yang tahu

cuma tuhan saja yang tahu...

jadi hari ini..aku enuhi hari ku dengan mendatangi kelas Dr. Fathoni lewat setengah jam...

sungguh x bersopan aku ini....

walaubagaimana pon aku sempat mengejar Pak...

sempat salin walaupon x faham sangat..bukan x faham langsung taw....

boleh faham kalau amik masa untuk merenung formula-formula

lengkap nota aku...suka la nota aku...love you....

dan habis jer kelas aku settlekan nama-nama group untuk Professional Studies

untuk assignment 3....

kebetulan aku g room Mr. Dian....dia sedang bersesi temuramah dgn Dr.Eric....

aku pasang telinga ( xbaik betul aku nih)...

tapi xder niat lain pon...

cuma nk dgr cara dia bercakap jer...

wah jelas betul Mr Dian bercakap...boleh dgr satu office.....

ya la..cuma Mr Dian n Dr Eric saja....

besh jugak la Dr Eric bercakap dalam bahasa Inggeris...

aku ni dah la minat gaya-gaya percakapan orang Inggeris....

ada style u know...

I like it...so so like the way he spoke...got style...

lepas jer aku bagi list kat Mr Dian...

sambil agak menggigil la sebb ada Dr Eric n Mr Dian sekali...

aku explain satu-satu pasal nama yang berubah tuh...fuhhh...borpoluh eden....

xpo..harap2 dia paham naaaa....jgn salah faham sudah...huhuhuhu....

masa tuh aku dgn Osheen

kitaorang tergedik2 arr lepas kuar office...

huhuhuhuhuhu...

sebab Mr Dian introduce kitaorang kat Dr Eric...

hehehee.....hehehheee.....suker kiter ek...

hurmm hari ini agak bosan..

malas nk buat structure...

x tahu apa masalahnyer....

kena try buat jugak....

susah betul structure nih kan....

camno la esok lusa nnti...boleh siap ko esemen aku ni...

(so jgn ingt aku dah siap esmen ok....)

ok la.. okla...

ni pic silly aku....

ngah xder keje.....

apa-apa jer la....WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!

AHAKAhahahaakkakaka...ballonnnn...!!!!!!!!

Salam and Good Day

First of all..I have started my blog for few days with few Malay poems

So be it, only being forwarded to the deserves

Do not bother at all

As my poem only reflects my sensitivity of my roots...

Well, for some reason really made me mad

Well, for some seconds really seek my clamness at last..

Leave it to the Almighty

HE would always by my side

He would always

It is always

This is me..holding my fall back

This is my yummy..prawn..gosh..alhamdulillah..i really enjoy my meal

That is all for 2day..not in the mood to be so happily ever after..

Thank you

May God pay you for your deed

~~~the Madness/Split Identity~~~~

sementara saat berlalu
sementara jari melayan pena
menggubah ilmiah di muka kertas

segalanya tersentap
bila dia mengbangkitkan semua
kerana marahkan nyamuk
perlukah kelambu dipunah?

kerana dia marahkan yang lain
kenapa diri ini yang meluap-luap?
kerana hanya satu
kerana hanya melayan karenah anak kecil
yang belum tentu masak akalnya
kerana hanya terusik dengan kata-kata anak kecil
yang belum mahu erti kata hormat

dek kerana tempiasnya mengena
di permulaan baris
setiap eja katanya dan maknanya
sungguh tepat mengiang di telinga

orang kata
dari mata turun ke hati
namun yang terjadi
dari bicara terkesan di hati
sakit, sakit dan terus sakit
sehingga tertunduk
sebal, tebal dan terguris
patutkah bangun
patutkah berdiam
patutkah berdendam
patutkah terus tertunduk
tidak tahu
diam

namun,
walau hati tersentuh, ingin memberontak
tetap masih ada akal yang beraja
dek mahu pertahan nilai
menghormati yang tua
mengasihi yang kecil

bukan mahu jadi semangka
licin di luar, tapi banyak hidupan di dalam
bukan mahu jadi bijak kata
pandai membetah, tapi tidak pandai menjaga
hanya mahu sedikit perhatian
dengarkanlah lonjakan hati

tidak semewahnya menujah tekanan konkrit
ke atas hati yang kecil
ke atas sekelompok pemikiran yang tidak sedepa
malah tidak sehasta
malah tidak sejengkal

di akui
walau ada satu bongkah yang retak
walau ia semakin retak
dan semakin retak kerana degilnya
dan semakin retak kerana besar kepalanya

kenapa harus
dan kenapa mesti
kenapa mesti Melayu juga yang bertitip
dengan mudah di hiris-hiris
di hadap yang lain
di banding-banding
di beza-beza
terkilan
kerana diri ini bukan begitu
kerana yang satu itu

meski anak kecil yang salah
bukankah nasihat yang elok
dan pujukan yang betul
mampu melerai
atau mungkin ada salah tafsir?
bukan niat mereka mahu menanam
benih-benih benci
bukan niat mereka mahu memercik
pecikan bunga api

tidak lebih sekadar anak-anak
yang mahu dipimpin
yang mahu di dorong
yang mahu di gendong
yang mahu di ajak bermain

mereka bukan iri
mereka bukan dendam
malah tidak terniat mahu membalas
cuma mahu sedikit saja
hanya sedikit, setitik, semiligram
kasih cendekiawan
yang banyak makanan ilmu
yang tidak akan luak jika di beri

engkau...!
ya...engkau yang aku tuding!
sedarkah engkau di mana engkau berpijak...?!
sedarkah engkau di mana engkau menghirup udara pagi ?!
sedarkah engkau?!

lihat sekeliling...
lihat dan pasanglah telingamu
mendongaklah....
lihat langit...
tingginya ia dari bumi...
lihat bumi....
rendahnyer ia dari langit....
terang lagi bersuluh...
tanah merah dan hitam ciptaan Allah ini adalah tanah aku...
amanah Allah untuk aku menjadi khalifahnya....
pemimpinnya dan Penjaganya....

aku izinkan engkau menjejak ke sini...
aku izinkan engkau berdiam di sini....
aku izinkan engkau mengorek rezeki bersama....
aku izinkan engkau menikmati kenikmatan yang ada
aku izinkan engkau berkhidmat sesetia sifatmu...
aku izinkan engkau berpangkat di bumiku...
aku izinkan engkau berkata-kata di hadapku...

namun jangan engkau membatasi apa yang telah terbatas
jangan engkau melukakan NAMAku apabila kau sudah berNAMA....
jangan engkau menghiris peha pabila sudah mendapat betis
jangan engkau menconteng arang ke muka ku.....
jangan engkau berlagak sombong meninggi diri
jangan engkau lupa asal usul dirimu...
jangan engkau lupa warnamu....
jangan engkau lupa diam Aku bukan tanda menyerah...
jangan engkau lupa....

pantang Melayu menderhaka kepada Sultannya...
pantang Melayu menyerah kalah sebelum berperang...
begitulah Hang Tuah bermandi darah semata mahu mengekalkan daulat Sultannya...
begitu durjana Anak Bentan menderhaka kepada Sultan Mahmud....
muntah darah padahnya....
jangan engkau lupa....

dan jangan engkau lupa....
Tun Teja yang dulunya di dapor
kini memimpin para laksamana
Tun Fatimah juga sudah pandai menhunus keris
mnyingsing lengan sanggup mati kerana Melayu
tidak jauh beza dengan aku
kalau British, Jepun dan Komunis datang buat kali kedua
apa saja aku sanggup lakukan
baik dari hujung jari
baik dari hujung pena
bahkan dari kata-kata yang menikam...
apa saja cara...akan aku sanggupi...

pantang aku, namaku di hina....
melayu masih berdaulat...
mungkin katamu itu semua hanyalah mitos
akibat ditelan zaman...
lekang dek panas
basah dek hujan
itu kata engkau ....tidak bagi aku

bagi aku..
Melayu berdaulat besar
Melayu berilmu tinggi
Melayu penuh adab sopan
aku bangga kerana aku Melayu...
meskipun ramai yang memandang sebelah mata
aku tetap bangga sebagai Melayu

meskipun aku benci engkau
aku tetap punya hati perut
aku tetap punya sabar
aku tetap punya belas
aku tetap punya kasih
aku tetap punya simpati
kerana itulah engkau berada di tempatku..
kerana aku adalah Melayu
Melayu yang penuh sifat belas dan sabar
kerana itu Melayu penuh penghormatan
benar kata Hang Tuah
tidak Melayu hilang di dunia
tidak sekali-kali

bangsaku...
jangan bermulut besar
kerana mulut badan binasa
kerana hati menjadi raja, matilah kita
kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga
ingatlah pantang larang nenek moyang kita tentang mulut

meskipon engkau ingat semua ini...
sedarkah engkau apa yang telah engkau perbuat?
sedarkah engkau apa yang telah engkau perkatakan?
sedarkah engkau apa yang telah terjadi?

ya....
baru sekarang engkau mahu sedar..
aku yang dulu Tinggi telah menjadi Rendah dek kata-kata engkau...

ya...
aku marah...
aku berpaling daripada memandang engkau...
aku berpaling dan tidak akan menoleh....
engkau faham apa yang harus engkau perbuat...
engkau akan faham nanti....
kapal sedang menantimu...
pergilah

selamat tinggal

salam and good day...

No class...
same like yesterday...
but i shall grab the opportunity and spent it on my best.....

to do what am i supposed to do....
homework and assignment and getting prepared for final exam and....
for surveying camp....
and being prepared for final project title....

wallah....
----see you in next entry-------

Hello everyone....

salam and good day to u all.....(to whom follow my blog actually)

It's been pretty busy here..that is why i abandoned my blog for days... as I am so busy with my Surveying Engineering assignment and also Professional Studies which I took for granted...hate the guy...

I have lots of stories while I am not around to you...

Lots of 'em....

welll...i dont know which one to start..well..i can start with a shocked news recently....

yesterday...yesterday's afternoon after i finished class..my structural class...i ricieved lots of messages from my fiances and a missed call from him....i thought its only an ordinary message in my mailbox like usual....

once i reached home, immediately called him via phone and he dindt picked up...but he replied my message..and after i provocked him with my message...finally he tell me the truth...he was in charged into a hospital....Hospital Bandar Penawar.....he made an appointment with the doctor for a small surgery...i scared for he being under surgery..even its only a minor surgery...

i was so worried..and i cried..he calmed me down..and he keep his promise to message me and to give me a call regularly...

and hours goes by....i finally accepted him for being under sharp scalpels...and tubes or anything related to surgery.....

i pray for him a lot...and i slept while holding tight his jacket hoping he will be in safe condition or circumstances after surgery...

and the night before 2morrow....suddenly came across our sweet memories...our first met...how cute he is

me and the civil engineering board...

he standing besides it too..hehe..so cute..

this is when we have our own trip to PC Fairs in KLCC..

nice view ryte abang...give a pose..yes..perfect..

this is him while in his workplace..with the goggles..safety helmet and the uniform..he loves blue so much...and he macthed with it..

he's in the McD outlet in Larkin Terminal..

Welll i hope u will getting better soon...and he said..he now looks like Michael Jackson...god heaven...never be i wish...

and I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHH ABANG....

And now....

we jump into other story i have here....i found a new skills developed..crochet skills....here is this...i made this on my own....hehehe...see...its pretty and easy as well...you guys should have a try.....

my yellow crochet art

and i made this..well actually i had my roomate to teach me to cook this..well a demonstration....it is a kind of vegetable somekind like 'petola' and we made a hole in the centre and poke it with omellete...hehe nice ryte..and we made it as part of curry dish...delicious...my roomate loves this so much...thanks to her...and i've been expecting for Chort (my housemate) to teach me to prepare Bubur Caca...she good at it...so delicious..

Huh!!!!Assignment!!!!

Pleasela.....i had enough with it..but what 2 do..its my duty and i have to go on...and here wallah....the perfect asignment...welll not binded yet when the pic taken..

and now my assignment is safe in sound in my lecturer's hand..better not to loose it...

and i have few more to go...

my structure assignment....not submitted yet..due date in on 4hb December 2009..wait for me...

Event in the lobby?????

in previous entry..i have mentioned about an event...ryte..???and below i stick a few pics from the event..welll..the rest pic still with Ali..Ali...i want my picccccc!!!!!...later..

ali and musa...

a person who loves to catch....

<<<<<<>>>>>>

this is the most important gadget i used since in form 4....believed it or not..cett....

1. to calculate when is my birthday
2. to count where is the exact distance my house from my college
3. to count how many cents left in my purse...
4. to count each years, months, days, hours, minutes and seconds left to be married with my fiance..
5. to count when i will be graduated..

no point actually to captured this part.......(xder keje sebenarnyer)

being connected

study....headache...

@@@@@@@---CAYA---$$$$$$$$$

CAYA eat keropok...

he still eating

while i'm busy with my contour map which mistakenly drawn onto A3 paper...

and still busy......busy...
hehehehhee...

this is me after class....

dont have enough sleep...

---------------------THE END----------------------

THATS ALL FOR 2DAY.....WISH ME LUCK ON MY ASSIGNMENTS, MY FINAL EXAM AND MY SURVEYING CAMP IN DECEMBER COMING...

-----AND FINALLY SHE STARING AT ME..YOU'RE SO LATE HUNNY BUN ------

~~~~~tarrrrraaaaa~~~

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(p/s: hahhahahhah..i went out crazy...kebabommmmmm....i burned out my house la....)

Salam and good day to you guys...

I had enough stressed day for 2day..

So i went a lil bit nuts and wallah...i collected all these pics just to remind us we are babies before...so tiny..so gentle and so cute..hehe...(no points actually)

Let have a look at them....

I went for a sightseeing with my mon...i saw a chipmunk eat nasi lemak..hahaha..my mom said..in UK they are bored to eat pasta and spaghetti..so they change into nasi lemak in Malaysia....

I miss my mom la..i wonder how she would take care of me when i was a little baby..kiss me so much i guess..

"Oh my..oh my..its so cold..where am i?god..in the fridge!!!!!!!!!"

"I am so happy today..i wear my moms Prada..hahaha..now i look like an orabge sheep...hehhehee....shining in the mroning..shining in morning...lets play hide and seek...the winner will get my kiss...hehehe"

"I am listening to the Hot.FM...well.what are they babbling?so crazy la they...ado ko masak lomak cili api?hungry la...where is nasi lemak?"

Baby smiling.."what are u laughing at ha?!!!"

Baby sleeping in naked..close your#$%$$#...so shy...so shy la...

zZzZzZzZzZ....i wear my pyjamas and after i eat my nasi lemak...suddenly i fell asleep and i sleep the whole day...i missed my Footbal show...Negeri Sembilan vs Kelantan...who cares...i dont even sided on both..i just wanna see the scenario of chasing the ball..so funny...

I wear my contact lense..

This is my blanket..so busyuk(smelly)..haha..mother..never wash my blanket...i wanna play more..meh la hide and seek..

come..come and play with me la...i got Bomb..TNT..bazooka...firecrackers...fireworks...and what ha?..ooohh ya..anthrax...come come...we play masak-masak with 'em...sharing is caring ma...

i want..i want...where is my thumb?? i'm searching for it..eh..what's in my mouth???oh ya..oh ya..my thumb lorrrr...silly baby....

CATSSSS!!!!

YOSHHHHH!!!!!Stay away..my pic is valuable la...i sue you..u sound silly when u speak Malay+Broken Chinese+with your silly face..syuhhhh..syuhhh...i eat you nanti....

I am the superhero..yahhhh..i eat your arms...i eat you..where is Ultraman and Power Rangers..silly to them...never come....so busy with clubbing ar...huh..now i have to struggle on my own....you monster vs alient...i reported to your mom...

Cats hate water..while having a shower and he ran away..and ES-KA-PE...hehehe..thats why la he seem to jump away and GET SET GO actions...like olympian la...100meter actions...

EH DONT TONGGEK-TONGGEK(LIFT UP YOUR BUTT)--NO MANNERS

kITTEN.....

wHERE is my mummy..oh no..not the mummies....(not from Egypt)...its mummy...when she wanna feed me????hurmm..then if she's not around...i have to cook la...

be polite and be gentleman-close your mouth if you wanna smile or laugh

"ahahahahaa...uhuhuhuu...ihihihihi...actually..you have to eat with your fork...not with your feet...where is your brain ha??on your knee??hurmmm i guess u r not selected to the contest...panties count contest?(panties count contest has been an issues by most NGO in Malaysia-an organization has create the contest and really deserves protest from Malaysian and being-this breaking news has been publish in News Straits Times press--go read paper la"...

@@@@@@@@LONG JOURNEY@@@@@@@

WHEN ROOTS HAVE BECOME STRONG AND CONCRETE ENOUGH TO WITHSTAND TO ANY OBSTACLE...

an ancient history leftover

~~~have fun and be funnier whenever we are dumped and be silly whene you hungry..live long sport for our country~~~~

(i am gila)